I guess in the end I really have nothing to complain about. Things are tough, but it's nothing that is too drastically problematic. Is it worst to never have or to gain and lose? When you never have, you can never feel the loss, which I guess could be more painful depending on how great the thing you gained was. After all, 'the higher you fly, the harder you fall.' I guess you do learn when you lose though. You can either choose to never gain again, or to simply keep on trying. But really when you have nothing, you're really just safe, or at least it seems to you. People may say or do things behind you, but you probably won't notice. But silence kills; slowly. Someone once told me 'I don't know anyone who as a kid, thought to himself, and said, when I grow up I want to do things by myself.' In the end, I really didn't lose anything. I should be grateful. Very grateful.
